Make Sense of It All

Will there ever be a day when I don't think of you dream of you or see you. I've been trying to let things go and I have but it seems at other times I can't. For some reason your still inside of my heart and it just won't let you go. I haven't necessarily figured it out but yes it does bother me. I go day to day trying to figure if this is really what I want or am I just psyching myself. Have I thrown all i've ever dreamed out for just a few minutes or a lifetime. School is stressful and a huge pain in the butt but i'm making it one step at a time. Every time I want to call you and meet you half way I always make it harder than it seems but arms lenght isn't just a mile away. I've given up so much but the realization isn't there. The look in your eyes is like you care so much and we haven't yet departed. I put so much on the line all for what I don't understand but yet believe so strongly in.