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Well pretty much we got back together and broke up again. I really understand it a little bit but not entirely. I see how you react when i'm around and it seems your just stone cold facial expression and yet sad at the same time if that makes any sense. There are three other guys who have made it very apparent they like me but I don't think I feel the same way about them as much as I do about you. Honestly as it doesn't seem like it but I miss you a lot. On the outside I try to cover it up and play it off but truth is I love you so much to point where it hurts and I mean the literally.I can see right through you and it kills me to see others believe that crappy act you put on. This past week on Thursday I lost a very close friend of mine and it's kills me from the inside out. Reality has not yet set in for anything at this point. I just think everything was a dream like it has always been. It never hit me that you would leave me so soon and I never got to spend those moments with you and tell you goodbye. It really has hit me how much i've missed but the thing is I regret never seeing you and now i'm paying for it.