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I've just realized that I have been consuming to much caffeine. I usually don't consume much caffeine at all so it's very rare of me to do so. I just had a series of reactions to it now I just have to ween myself off of it. Today was an ok day it wasn't the worst nor the best. First block was ok I had no problems in there second block was interesting as usual. I think Mrs.Rose was amused that I finally was asking her questions like for the first time all year i've had her. Today was seriously interesting which is a great thing for me because now I understand the information. Lunch I was really just in a bad mood and I guess everyone caught on to that at the table.I did talk to Brandon this morning and Kathleen was like yeah he totally likes you. I have no idea she def. could be right. Third block was the worst the one math problem I didn't get was the one she called on me for. Then it finally clicked with me I know now I may not pass her class which really sucks.I bombed the lab safety quiz so I have to retake it. Now we have a lab report due Friday so I hopefully will get started today after all my other homework. Then we have another elements quiz I have to study for. I have like two quizzes and a test tomorrow. On the way to english I ran into Richard and I was saying hey to both of my teachers and was smiling then he walked by coincidentally when I was smiling and I think he may have smiled back a little but I knew and he knew we had seen each other. But i'm not getting my hopes up because I know how this could all end up to. It could be a great thing or horrible thing either way i'm going to have to live with it whether I like it or not. I really have to get started on my homework. It's not much but it's time consuming. I just wish I could do better in chemistry I loved the class now thats all starting to fade away. But that's ok just being me will get me where i'm going and more if i'm forbidden to love. i miss you so much and can't stand seeing you so alone and knowing what i know i loved you and just maybe i still do.