Down

I haven't written in so long which is shocking.lol. Lately is has been seriously stressful for me and I am just about to loose it. I'm slacking like crazy on my homework, can barely pay attention during class, nor retain any information. My stress level has taken a turn for the worse. I've even gone to the measures of turning off my phone for about 3 days now. I refuse to talk to anyone via texting or calling and will practically completely ignore you. My friends are starting to turn their backs on me and i'm not taking to kindly to it and don't know if I should. Something may go down this week I'm not exactly sure but I have a feeling it will. I have a butt load of homework which I pretty much am half way through. I'm trying to type as fast as I can so I can write my paper and study for a quiz. I see no point in even bothering to complain anymore since no one won't take the time to listen.I'm so fed up with half the people at my school and in my classes. Its ridiculous how we are suppose to grow as we get older and not become younger as our bodies age faster. I'm tired of people talking shit behind my back like i don't know anything and lord knows i do. I'm sick of being the target of every little nit picking thing I say. Obviously people are being seriously ridiculous and need to grow up for the their own sake and my well being.lol. I don't even want to think about my grades at this point i'm tired of looking at them and having teachers tell me how much I suck. I think ill do better off by not looking at them and knowing that i'm a better person without a letter grade defining my intellegence. I honestly think these grades are just a letter or number that groups you together with everyone else and they base you on just that alone and not your true talents. Your such as inort person and I honestly don't know what to do about it anymore. I don't know what to think or say despite how much I would love to just let it all out. But I may be doing more harm than good. Is there anyone to trust anymore but myself and God? God hasn't let me down yet but have you? I don't find comfort anymore in anyone but God and a close friends. Do you look at yourself in the mirror when it fogs up and tells you lies or do you look at clear water while it stares back at you claiming the truth?