Really?!

So these past couple of weeks that I haven't blogged have been a pain. My partner for this thing I'm doing is just flat out annoying and sometimes I wish I could get it together. I'm not a fan of working with others who don't know when to stop talking about things and actually get them done. It has just been the most frustrating thing right now at this point and trying to deal with it has brought me to my breaking point. Unfortunately I'm actual sticking this out and at least attempting to make sense of what is really going on. I think that I'm a very smart, intelligent, and independent individual. I have every right to say what I need to say without feeling as if I can't talk or my opinion doesn't matter. I have the right to be who I am without being judged and I don't appreciate when someone does show their frustrations with me in a unprofessional way and tone. There are somethings that need to be handled in certain ways. There are so many different opinions and personalities that need to be respected. But on a lighter note Anthony has planned a surprise and shockingly it was something I asked for before he left for BC.I haven't been able to figure it out or understand what the heck he has going on. I think that I could figure it out but it's been a few weeks and I'm still clueless. It makes me very anxious and I guess that calls time for me to take a deep breath and relax for a few minutes. I've been very tense lately and not able to relax because I have so much going on and stuff that needs to be done. To make a run down I have school homework, study for an organization, and just flat out no down time. I really wished things would turn around for the best. College is okay at times but for the most part I'm not really enjoying my experience and it is everything I'm making it out to be. I just expected a lot more and trying to pin point where I fit in all of this chaotic world and knowing if I still have a place in this world and where I belong exactly. There are so many things I need to work on and improve in order to become an accomplished human being.