I decided to sleep in later than usual on Saturday. I didn't have much to do, but just had a rough night last night. I'm surprised I didn't cry last night because people are taken others for granted and it's so crazy how we easily get caught up in who we are. Just something about today, I just really needed to be a peace and just hold myself together. It was tough to roll out of bed and get myself together. I decided to go to the store and buy a thing or two that I thought was appropriate to help keep my mind off things. School and my own personal life is a lot to handle and I'm so proud that I am able to manage it well. I was reading Chicken Soup for the Soul and I got through the first story and just tears ran down my face. I've learned to love and appreciate everything and breath of life that is given. You never know when this would all be taken from you. I know my strength and weaknesses and just at times I feel weak and crumble, but still stand strong no matter how dumb I feel, weak, embarrassed or idiotic I look. God gives us the most precious thing in the world and that is the gift of life. That life is something so beautiful and gorgeous that when it's gone the pain is the worst. Getting through the day and the future I know I'll have. My love is everything to me and I miss him more and more each day. But another day that passes is another day closer to him. I just don't want to live my life. I want to embrace it with wide open arms nothing could ever replace the past moments. The future has so much to offer even when things look low.
- Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for.
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