Lost

Over the past few days things have been really confusing for me and I really don't know where to began or where to start. People are judging me and i'm not liking it at all. No one will listen to me and they are just full of shit and it really starts to wear on me. What does it take for people to understand who i really am? I'm not getting this at all. I really want to live my life the way it's suppose to be and not satisfy others. I still miss him and we probably will see each other at school but I want more than that. It still hurts me badly and I want the best for us and maybe things will work out just like they are meant to be. I just hope life won't give us the short hand in the long run because of our actions. I'm not giving up on you no matter what. It's like my head tells me just to back off and everything will just cease but my heart is pushing me foward and won't let it go. I'm confused and misunderstood but maybe just maybe it will work out. How I can pull this off will be just the next step.