Bad Day

ok seriously im about to like loose it. i can't stand not having richard in my life it is seriously killing me. i finally talked to him but that just made things worse for me and i guess he was somewhat happy about it. im actually debating whether or not i should call him and maybe we could talk for a little bit longer or work things out. well i just dont know thats why im asking you cause most of the time your usually rite.lol. living only 3 mins away from each other im bound to run into him or his aunt and uncle who i swear still loves me. im suppose to go out w/ another guy just to clear my head and relax but im afraid that if he sees me w/ another guy i know i've really screwed up. i'm trying to wait it out and if things are suppose to be worked out they will but ya i don't think i can hold out any longer.