I Feel So Small

So today was the day I went through and was okay will the accomplishment I made. I have issues just like anyone else and I'm just proud of myself for making the accomplishment I made. It's the short step to the many step stones ahead. Finally tomorrow i'm going to get my ears pierced again. I was thinking about A earrings just for the love of my life. I miss him so very much and I really can't wait to see him again. He brings the joy to my dark days even though I hold back every tear known to man. No one truly understands what I go through everyday and just looking like an idiot as I wait for the mail. It's weird how in so little time he became the person I hated and wondered what he wanted from me. Now planning a wedding and dealing with family is my daily routine on top of being a full time student.He is the best thing in this world and I honest to gosh couldn't ask for a braver and most beautiful heart to care for me. He has been my life and love. I'm really glad no one understands the love we share because ours is just that special. Sometimes we step into a boat not thinking we're going to sink, but in the darkest hours you find love or that special bond that held you together to survive the waves of life.I love you A-