Missing a Special Person

I'm finally home from a long and eventful day. The party was nice and funny. It felt good to laugh again since I haven't in a very long time. I'm going through this phase where I want to tell A somethings but then again I don't. I really don't want to argue with him but I really just want to yell and be mad and frustrated because that's the way I feel. I hate him for certain issues he won't contend with but then again I love him dearly for his heart. I'm really outdone right now and just ready to throw in the towel. I'm so upset with him right now that I really don't know how much more I can take. He makes me so pissed off that I just can't handle anymore of it. I'm wanting to scream out but that would break his precious heart and I would never do that to him. He is amazing and sometimes his flaws to upset me more than usual at times. Hopefully I can look past that and see another light. I'm just venting and not trying to be an idiot about the situation. I love this man more than anything.