In Pain..Literally

Right now i'm not doing so well and i'm in a lot of pain physically. I really don't understand why and feel as if i'm about to crouch over. I could barely get through philosophy today nor could I think straight. I was not prepared for what the past 3 days were bringing to the table. I finally gave in and made a doctor appt. after just trying to make myself feel better. I have an hour before I need to head to my last class of the day then i'm off to find the hospital where I need to go to the doctor. It's like a 15 minute walk and i may just have to get some medication too. So i'll be having the fun adventure of finding the pharmacy. I'm just so out of it and just not feeling good at all. I just have so much on my mind. I have to do my homework for all of my classes this weekend, figure out where to put my clothes and my dresser because I've been having the worse time accessing my clothes in the morning. Then my printer won't work either which is a huge issue because next week I have to print out my english assignment. My laptop is acting weird too because I can't register my mail and my battery needs to be switched out. Then I have to order a few things offline for my computer too. I have so much to do this weekend and I'm just overwhelmed but then scared at the same time. I started throwing up yesterday morning and now I can barely eat. My mom called yesterday to make sure i was eating because for a while i would never eat because of personal reasons and how sick I would feel after I ate. I'm going to have so much fun trying to find the health clinic for my appt. and i'm very nervous and scared about the whole ordeal. I can't help but to have tears run down my face because I've never been in this much pain before and it's really starting to freak me out. I've been really on edge lately because of my latin class and it's really got me all confused and just mind boggled. I've been trying to breath and just calm down but i'm actually considering dropping the class and going down a level. The professor really wants you to participate and become apart of the class but i'm not exactly I can do that. The people in there are intimidating and I just don't feel comfortable or that I fit in with everyone else. It seems everyone in there are really smart and that just makes me feel even more stupid in the class. i really hope I can get through the day and not loose my mind. I'm just sitting here shaking and rattled. I've never been like this before at all. I mean this isn't the usual me at all and maybe because i'm making a huge adjustment and i'm just trying to get use to it. I"m just trying to breath and make sure that everything is okay. I'm just going through this phase where i'm trying to figure out what's really going on. Everyone else has a home to go to when they need too and I just don't have that at all. I only have myself at the moment to rely on and call my own family. Well on a lighter note Anthony graduated from BC today which i'm proud of him. I guess i'll go to take care of somethings. Hopefully all goes well.